jueves, febrero 03, 2005
Elisabeth Shue
Kelly Brook´s nude scenes
Aishwarya Rai
Sabato
Groundhog Day
Hoy, en mi ociosidad, vi que era el "día de la marmota" en USA y aproveché para rescatar el filmete. Como ocurría en la película (la ma-ra-vi-llo-sa 'Atrapado en el tiempo') y siguiendo la tradición-leyenda, cuando la marmota Phil sale de su letargo en el pueblo estadounidense de Punxsutawney (Pensilvania), quedan seis semanas de invierno. Y hoy, Phil se ha dejado ver.
miércoles, febrero 02, 2005
U. G. Krishnamurti
Porn week
Sylvia Saint... The Canary Islands - 11/22/04.
Fun in the sun with Sylvia Saint, on location in the beautiful Canary Islands. One of our best trips yet! Cristo bendito...
Walking meditation. Thich Nhat Hanh
- Thich Nhat Hanh was born in Vietnam in 1926, and left home as a teenager to become a Zen monk. In Vietnam, he founded the Van Hanh Buddhist University and was chairman of the Vietnamese Buddhist Peace Delegation during the Vietnam War. Thich Nhat Hanh was nominated by Martin Luther King, Jr. for the Nobel Peace Prize. Since 1966, Mr. Hanh has lived in exile in France, where he continues writing, teaching, gardening, and helping refugees worldwide.
- Me compre este. Es pequeñito y lo llevo en el bolsillo del abrigo. Aqui se llama "El largo camino lleva a la alegría": La practica de la meditación andando. Editorial ONIRO. Gratitud por las fotos a Plum Village, France.
No, I am not crying.
I hold my face in my two hands.
To keep my loneliness warm
Two hands, protecting,
Two hands, nourishing,
Two hands preventing
My soul from leaving me in anger.
Karen Bach aka Karen Lacoume aka Karen Lancom aka Angel Paris
LARA FLYNN BOYLE Airlines
- Boyle, ¿esta, como yo, loca?
Paro y locura
Llevo sin currar desde el 1 de diciembre del año pasado. Estoy empezando a ponerme maloooooooo.
- Unemployment & suicide. Quita, quita.
BEGIN BY ACCEPTING A FEW FACTS Emotions of anger, depression, fear, guilt, despair, and isolation are normal. Your situation is not unique. Your problem is shared by millions of others who are unemployed. Many of those cases are not as critical as yours. Others are worse. Your situation is not static. If you persist in your search for work, you will find a job. How well you cope in the meantime will depend on the quality of your attitudes, feelings, and actions. You have the ability to control your attitudes, feelings, and actions.
KNOW THE PITFALLS
Immobilization is the inability to move or to act toward changing your situation. It’s staying at home; sleeping a lot; putting off until tomorrow what you don’t see much sense in doing today; not making the phone calls you meant to make; and going around in a daze. Immobilization is putting everything on “hold.” People who are unemployed are sometimes immobilized to the point of not being able to file for unemployment insurance benefits or other services, even though they desperately need the help and know they are eligible to receive it. And they don’t even know why they don’t do what they don’t do. Immobilization is a symptom of severe depression.
Depression doesn’t necessarily mean crying all the time. Frequently, the depressed person seems to be functioning normally with the possible exceptions of seeming a little withdrawn or being in a bad mood. Of all the pitfalls, depression is probably the most dangerous because it starts feeling comfortable. You can begin to like it. Sometimes, your depression nets you some attention you otherwise would not have received. And there’s another reason it’s dangerous. It gets better; or it gets worse. Unless and until you turn it around, it gets worse; and the worse it gets the more difficult it is to turn around. That’s bad enough, but there is a face-saving factor here too. After all, how can you—after going around for days, weeks, or months with a long face—suddenly give all that up and start smiling again? How? You just do it.
You make a conscious decision to alter your frame of mind. It’s difficult, but it’s better than the alternative of going through life depressed.
Paranoia is difficult to avoid at a time life has dealt a dirty blow. It’s easy to convince yourself that you’re the victim of some big conspiracy because you’re too young, or too old, or a woman, or a man, or a minority, or too tall, or too short, or too smart, or not smart enough, or too outspoken, or too soft-spoken. While all of the above would be more interesting reasons for unemployment, it is probably more realistic—and undeniably more productive—to assume that you are not being singled out. You’re unemployed because of the economy; because there aren’t enough jobs to go around; because you had the misfortune of being in the wrong place at the wrong time; or for any of a million other reasons all of which are beyond your control. But some paranoia is justified. Unfortunately, your family, friends, and associates are not psychologists. More often than not, they aren’t very good at dealing with someone who is unemployed. Consequently, they seem to develop the knack of saying all of the wrong things, like, “Maybe if you didn’t do this, or change the way you do that...” Things that ultimately translate to a rejection of who and what you are. Or they may avoid you. They don’t mean to; and they don’t even realize they’re doing it. On a subconscious level you frighten them and threaten their sense of security. They don’t know what to say to you. They are afraid that any of their good fortunes—no matter how insignificant—might depress you. It is important for your sake that you understand their behavior.
Expect it. Accept it. Forgive it. Then, focus your energy on changing it. Let your friends know that you have no intention of becoming a recluse, and that you welcome invitations. Discuss your unemployment openly and frankly; and whenever possible, use your sense of humor about it.
Anger Of course you’re angry. You have every right to be. You want to work, but you don’t have a job. And chances are you’re not even sure at whom to direct your anger. While anger is a negative emotion, there is a great deal of energy behind it that can be put to positive use. That same energy can stimulate your imagination and put some innovation in your search for work. That same energy can be used to better organize and accelerate your work search. It can be directed toward a multitude of positive, productive accomplishments.
Isolation can be a by-product of anger, paranoia, depression, or immobilization. And not having any money can isolate you, too. But there are other reasons we become isolated when we’re unemployed. We’re embarrassed, so we avoid people. Obviously, we assume the blame and the shame for our unemployment. In addition to being counterproductive and futile, this kind of unnecessary guilt trip is, in all probability, totally without justification. Sometimes we keep to ourselves out of a misguided concern for others, in that we’re afraid our presence is depressing; or because we want to avoid making others feel uncomfortable. The key word here is “misguided.” Your family, friends, neighbors, and contacts are more important now than they’ve ever been. You need their help and support.
A Sagging Self-Image seems inevitable at this juncture. You have no money, and no paycheck to remind you that somebody thinks you are worthwhile. This is one area that requires constant work. You had a job before and you will find one again. Concentrate on your strengths and assets. Review them daily. Write them on your bathroom mirror, because those strengths and assets will be your survival.
Loss Of Identity After asking your name, they want to know what you do for a living. When you were working, that was easy. Now, what do you say? This situation won’t be so painful if you prepare a response. Without hesitation, look them straight in the eye and say, “I’m a very good mechanic and I’m looking for a job.” Or, “I used to be a secretary, but I’m looking for something in sales.” Don’t be at a loss for words or apologetic about your situation. Instead, seize the moment to promote your job search. If you choose not to indicate your unemployment, simply state a job title you’re comfortable with such as “I’m an accountant” or “I’m a salesperson.”
Fatigue is the direct result of any or all of the above, from immobilization to loss of identity. Other contributing factors might include a subconscious desire to escape through sleep; worry and anxiety over your situation; insomnia (caused by worry and anxiety over your situation); or just plain boredom. And drinking too much, smoking too much, eating too much, or doing anything too much tends to fatigue, also. A healthful diet (even though you’ve lost your appetite), physical exercise (despite the fact you have no energy), and restful sleep are the obvious prescriptions. Keep busy, even if it requires forcing yourself; but make sure your agenda includes recreational activity. But if you’ve been getting your eight hours sleep (not four and not sixteen), eating right, exercising, keeping busy, and you’re still fatigued; don’t overlook other health-related possibilities.
DEVELOPING A COPING PLAN
Organize and take charge of your life. Live by a schedule as rigid and as disciplined as you would if you were working; with set times to get up, eat, and sleep. Pursue your work search during certain hours as though it was a job. Include special projects in your schedule. Try to accomplish something every day, including learning new things. You’ll find that having a routine and following a schedule focuses your energy and puts some direction in your daily life. Organizing your life and taking care of yourself will enhance your self-image and make you feel good about yourself. You’ll feel healthier; have more energy; and, more important, you will increase your odds of finding a job.
Get Financial help is probably the first kind of help you need. Find out everything you might be eligible to receive and apply for it—unemployment insurance, food stamps, public assistance, medical coupons, social security—don’t overlook any possibilities. And should it be necessary, remember there are food banks in your area, too. Beyond that, don’t forget family and friends. Ask for help if you need it. There are people out there who would appreciate the opportunity to help because they have a sincere desire to be useful. Accepting their generosity will undoubtedly help you both. Find out if you’re eligible for programs that will give an employer tax credits for hiring you. Also learn if you’re eligible for training programs or retraining programs. Investigate all possibilities and follow up.
Psychological support can come from many sources. Frequently, all we need is to talk to someone—anyone—to let it all out. For that kind of therapy, family, friends, or a member of the clergy can give the support you need. Medical research confirms that people who have positive, supportive relationships are physically and mentally healthier. A friend to talk to, a shared laugh, a word of encouragement, and a hug can be more valuable than any prescription. Another resource is support groups comprised of people in similar situations who understand and can relate to everything you are going through.
Call your local Mental Health Association to find out about support groups in your area. If you feel your situation is severe, professional help might be the answer. Again, contact the Mental Health Association for referral to the resources in your area. One of the best antidotes for depression is doing something to help someone else. You have time, talents, and skills that could mean a great deal to your family, friends, an elderly person in your neighborhood, a youth group, or a volunteer agency. You’ll find that helping someone else helps you more than it helps them. And there are other antidotes. Give yourself a treat now and then. Certainly, unemployment infringes on your lifestyle but don’t abandon all of life’s pleasures. An occasional movie, ballgame, or evening out is as important as meeting your other basic needs.
Don’t forget to laugh. Humor can protect you from some of the pain, and it can help those around you through this, too. Accomplishments are great medicine because they make us feel good about ourselves—even minor ones like cleaning out a drawer, working in the garage, darning a sock, or writing a resume. Make sure you accomplish at least one task every day.
Pursue New Opportunities While unemployment is inevitably a time for worry and a certain amount of grief, it is also a time for reflection, change, and growth. Your new freedom may have been thrust upon you, but take advantage of it. It’s an opportunity to evaluate where you’ve been and where you’re headed; and determine whether or not you should change course. This could be the time to start a new career. After all, you might be placing unfair limitations on your potential if all you want is your old job back.
Finally, have faith. Whether you put your faith in yourself, the future, or a greater power, a hopeful outlook will do more for you than any of the advice herein.
You are an important person. You can do anything you want to do or have to do. Every day you survive makes you stronger. And remember, this too shall pass.
martes, febrero 01, 2005
Dos ciegos: Sabato-Borges
Corre, loco, corre.
Misterio Pierre Woodman
- Pierre Woodman, mito
Medicina en ojo
Quien tienen miedo a Losantos
- Torres, Rafael
Durante 30 años (se dice pronto TREINTA) este grupo ha sido el referente de lo politicamente correcto, de la memoria histórica de España. Es el grupo sin piedad. Dan o deniegan el carnet de RH gubernativo. Es decir, deciden si puede alguien gobernar pacificamente o no. Falta G. Delgado pero con él ya nos resarcimos riendonos de su programa sobre consultorio sentimental, derribos de individuos politicamente desafectos y niños que se hacen pajas.
- Belloch
Seguramente, la edificación de este certificado de ser existente o desactualizado no surge espontaneamente. La derrota en una guerra en el año 1939 supuso el primer acto de un drama que han sabido tejer manos sutiles. La post-guerra y todo el periodo dictatorial de 40 años constituía el segundo acto, lleno de pesares para un grupo y satisfacciones para otro, preclaramente diferenciado por un pacto tácito. Solo fue una traición, no una victoria cruel. En la izquierda solo existia una república (¿que és una república?) pacífica (no golpista o bolchevique), amante del credo libre y la residencia libre de estudiantes.
- Carnicero, desde La Habana
El tercer acto, el del extasis y crujir de dientes, se inició en el año 75. Se templaron los nervios y las gaitas. Mi grupo, dijeron, se hará con el poder tarde o temprano, así que podemos esperar. Pero soportaremos la demora en el pago de "nuestro débito" a cambio de una condición. Nosotros escribimos la historia.
- Carlos Llamas
Con esa dramatización favorable de nuestra memoria, gentes como yo, nacidos en el iter, recibieron una descarga propagandistica brutal, atroz, vergonzante. Ellos concibieron al ser patrio como un ser evolucionado, facultado para todo y receptor de todo tipo de derechos y algarabias. Cualquier individuo sin sentido de lo colectivo, cuestionador de todo, aferrado a su curiosidad, es un pobre dinosaurio lejano a la verdad, un asesino, un fascista enemigo del pueblo, de la chusma, en realidad. Un pueblo tiene una identidad, una memoria indubitada, un ser y aquí solo han sostenido una chusma desintegrada. Solo existe una clase media socialista o clandestina.
- Aguilar
Un colectivo cualquiera no puede generar un ser jurídico evolucionado acreedor y deudor de conceptos históricos. Y menos si son falsos. La gestión de la historia supuso la clave del control de cualquier atisbo conservador en el pais. Con gran inteligencia, esa idea judeo-cristiana de la culpa resultó su gran éxito en una estrategia história y ontológica propia del politburó. Se olvidaban masacres genocidas u odios intimos; se escribian con mayusculas matanzas sin cadaveres en Badajoz o se lanzaban al subconsciente colectivo limpiezas asépticas en Paracuellos. La izquierda no tenía sino débitos. Y estamos pagándolos todos, hasta la gente que inocentemente pasaba por allí. Se ha gestado en silencio la rebelión actual. Es el despertar del ciudadano sin cuentas pendientes, sin culpa, que se pregunta porqué se dieron miles de millones a la UGT o un edificio en Avenida de América y que es eso de la deuda histórica.
- El gran maestro
Para esta multinacional de la ideologia y la memoria histórica, Stalin no existió como financiador de una guerra que pretendía hacer de España una suerte de Albania. El oro de Moscú resultó una anecdota edulcorada. Carrillo, gestor de Paracuellos, es aceptado como diputado y locutor en la SER. Pero la memoria de los conservadores queda restringida. Esas concesiones nunca fueron suficientes para la izquierda. ¿Que ocurre con el ciudadano que está pidiendo un indulto por no haber cometido mas delito que no ser socialista?
- Gutierrez, el apestado.
Cualquier disensión de ese espectro mágico recibe el justo castigo. La alteración de los equilibrios generados en estos últimos 30 años puede derribar todo el entramado de culpas y débitos. Gutierrez lo sabe. Fue aniquilado y vive ahora con pies de plomo.
- Jimenez Losantos
Con motivo de la tensión generada en los últimos tiempos y el afianzamiento de la derecha, solo en virtud de factores de gestión económica, no se aceptó la derrota electoral tras el atentado. Un periodista cojo, vociferante y mal encarado se soltó la melena y se olvidó de pactos históricos. Reivindica memorias, no siente culpa de ser conservador, insulta a todos y dice lo que han pensado miles de ciudadanos y no lo han podido expresar ni en la panaderia. Vuelve el equilibrio en la busca de la verdad. No solo se tienen que desenterrar los muertos de Rafael Torres, vamos a ver craneos de todos. Y ¿que ha ocurrido? Le llamam fascista. Todos le tienen miedo, terror y yo, me divierto mucho. Veo un pais sin culpa, sin amnesia, vivo.
lunes, enero 31, 2005
Poemario del donner kebab
Poe, el veneno obscuro
- Poe, el grande yonkie
Detrás de Poe (...) hay una neurosis. (...) es legítimo cuando se busca en la neurosis un medio para entender su génesis [la de la obra). En la neurosis, como en otras desdichas, podemos ver un artificio del individuo para lograr un fin. La neurosis de Poe le habría servido para renovar el cuento fantástico, para multiplicar las formas literarias del horror. También cabría decir que Poe sacrificó la vida a la obra, el destino mortal al destino póstumo.
Poe siempre reitera la unión entre vida y literatura, influido una vez más por la ideas de Baudelaire: sin la neurosis, el alcohol, la pobreza, la soledad irreparable, no existiría la obra de Poe. Esto [sic creó un mundo imaginario para eludir el mundo real; el mundo que soñó perdurará, el otro es casi un sueño. La obra de Poe está ligada a factores ajenos a la persona: la enfermedad o el vicio. En resumen, los estados excepcionales de conciencia son los que posibilitan su escritura. Su literatura es causa y reflejo de los mismos. Nuestra imagen de Poe, la de un artífice que premedita y ejecuta su obra con lenta lucidez, al margen del favor popular, procede menos de las piezas de Poe que de la doctrina que enuncia en el ensayo The philosophy of composition. Poe se creía poeta, sólo poeta, pero las circunstancias lo llevaron a escribir cuentos, y esos cuentos a cuya escritura se resignó y que debió encarar como tareas ocasionales son su inmortalidad Tal vez los infiernos elaborados ulteriormente (por Henry James, por Kafka) sean más complejos y más íntimos que el de Poe. La muerte y la locura fueron los símbolos de que éste se valió para comunicar su horror de la vida (...) que lo atroz es la destrucción de la vida, por obra de la muerte y de la locura. (...) Acusado de imitar la literatura alemana, pudo responder, con verdad: El terror no es de Alemania, es del alma. Él pudo haber situado sus crímenes y sus detectives en Nueva York, pero entonces el lector habría estado pensando si las cosas se desarrollan realmente así, si la policía de Nueva York es de ese modo o de aquel otro. Resultaba más cómodo y está más desahogada la imaginación de Poe haciendo que todo ello ocurriera en París, en un barrio desierto del sector Saint - Germain. Por eso el primer detective de la ficción es un extranjero (...) Porque el que escribe la obra es un americano y necesita un personaje lejano.
"Entre esos muros, en esa cámara nupcial, pasé con Rowena de Tremaine las impías horas del primer mes de nuestro matrimonio, y las pasé sin demasiada inquietud. Que mi esposa temiera la índole hosca de mi carácter, que me huyera y me amara muy poco, no podía yo pasarlo por alto; pero me causaba más placer que otra cosa. Mi memoria volaba (¡ah, con qué intensa nostalgia!) hacia Ligeia, la amada, la augusta, la hermosa, la enterrada. Me embriagaba con los recuerdos de su pureza, de su sabiduría, de su naturaleza elevada, etérea, de su amor apasionado, idólatra. Ahora mi espíritu ardía plena y libremente, con más intensidad que el suyo. En la excitación de mis sueños de opio (pues me hallaba habitualmente aherrojado por los grilletes de la droga) gritaba su nombre en el silencio de la noche, o durante el día, en los sombreados retiros de los valles, como si con esa salvaje vehemencia, con la solemne pasión, con el fuego devorador de mi deseo por la desaparecida, pudiera restituirla a la senda que había abandonado -ah, ¿era posible que fuese para siempre?- en la tierra". LIGEIA, Edgar Allan PoeQueenylove, my amor
Hace unos días descubrí a mi nuevo amor. Nunca sabes donde/cuando se va a producir el suceso que cambie tu vida... y fue en Mobog.com. Allí estaba ella. Ya no existe la página.
My new girlfriend no solo tenía sus fotos maravillosas de teléfono movil. Fiera en Munich. Teutona toda.
Dementia Sanabria
Silencio y demencia: isolation is the test.